Happy Families

Ok so I told my sister about all that went on last night, and she has emailed half brother no.2! He is keen to meet up, but it's a bit early for K*. Watch this space...

A real sense of calm came over me today, I am finally feeling comfortable with the situation I have thrown myself into and got to start looking forward and not back. I almost can't wait to get on the plane to India now, but on a lovely crisp sunny day in Brighton I felt a sense of some of the things I will be missing.

I'm staying in tonight, 2 nights in a row! And I feel good about it at last. I know I won't be able to hold this in my mind at all times, but feeling good in life for me is just a state of mind and it's all to do with having a future, something to look forward to and that is a really good positive thing that I have to remember. It's very easy for me to slip in to the other ways of feeling happy and that is just immediate pleasures like going for a drink or getting some attention from the opposite sex, all good stuff and all well and good, but if I sort the long term happiness that's when life will be sweet.

Anyway that's all a bit serious, I have something to look forward to now with this trip and although there will be some tough times ahead I also feel quite excited about all the possibilities when I get back, rather then fretting about what the hell I'm going to do with my life.

You know I think it might be all the talk of Eddie, the guy has just cruised through life god knows how many kids and broken hearts etc... that he has left behind him. I'm not a bad bloke, so I'm not going to beat myself too much anymore, so here's to getting back to the happy go lucky chap that I think in the most part I am.

Anyway enough homespun philosophy I need to get some things sorted, I've got the day off tomorrow got to get these visas sorted